Ok, so I'm beginning to wonder what God is trying to teach me lately or what His purpose is in making my life hell this past week. Let me go ahead and add the whole month in there too while I'm at it. I have just become overtaken by a storm and I'm wondering if I should yell at Jesus for napping on the job or say forget it, join him and go cuddle up with him. Honestly, I'm going the lay down and sleep route and let him take care of this mess. Maybe I'll rise above the disciples and trust his sovereignty here and let him hold me instead of rebuke me when I freak out! I don't mean that in a weird way but in an honest way. I do understand the disciples frustration though. It's hard to sleep through the storm and "cast all of our cares on him." or "be anxious for nothing!" (seriously??? HOW???) However, scripture is clear! It must be done! So here I am laying in the storm but to let you in on what's going on I feel I need to share with you my life and struggles this week. So here it goes...
Let me just talk about this week though. The struggle I,m going through for the other part of the month has been more personal so I'll keep it to myself for now.
So you all know I'm heading to Colorado as a speaker for a church's youth conference. Well, I have been trying to prepare for weeks but it seems like every time I sit down to study, something crucial happens and gets in the way. I'm not nervous about it and do trust God to speak through me but there are still a lot of things that need to get done before I go. I thought today would be the day it would get done but I was wrong. Here's what I have on my plate:
1) The night before my birthday a MASSIVE tree fell in my yard - that was the day I was going build up the brick wall fence in my yard so that my puppies could stay in the back while we were out of town. No luck though and the massive tree remains on the brick wall I need to build up until I can get an 8 hour period at least to cut it up and move it. We hadan answer though. Andy and Bailey said the dogs could stay with them.
2) MONUMENTAL HAIL STORM last night - pretty sure my roof is messed up and leaking. Answer: insurance claim
3) branches ALL OVER my yard from storm - had planned on doing a lot of yard work after I studied this week and even paint the brick on my house if I had time. The yard looks like a disaster zone though and nearly IMPOSSIBLE to ever get cleaned up before I leave.
4) no power last night or today. Couldn't sleep to save my life due to the fact that I was laying in my own sweat!! The food we bought from the grocery store and in the refrigerator - GONE! No power anywhere in town with wi-fi so no getting stuff done on the computer (I'm doing this from my phone which I'll explain later)
5) My dogs were burning up this morning so we thought since most stuff in town is closed and we don't have to go in the office we'll take the puppies to the lake. We always take my truck when we go somewhere far because Bonnie's car will die VERY soon but in order to take the truck the pups would have to sit in the back (the bed of the truck) which they LOVE to do because the wind blows in their face the whole time. AWESOME!
Off to the lake right? Accept that this time Samson decides he needs to get out of the truck and jumps out going about 35 mph!!! All I saw was him ROLLING down the road!!! **** INSERT HUGE FROWNY FACE with a tear and a guy who feels like the worst owner on the planet earth!!!**** He was okay though and walked away with a sprained leg. Still... I cried! For real! (mainly because I'm starting to understand the depths of my depravity and just how far it reaches. It even causes stupidity and neglect!). Now I need to find someone who is willing to keep and take good care of a very hurt little puppy who is tender enough as it is without a hurt leg and bruised body while I'm gone. Preferably a quite house because he isn't supposed to walk around much.
6) My phone was destroyed! When I saw Samson fall I freaked and slammed on the breaks and jumped out of the car without any hesitation or mindfulness of anything around me (including the cars coming in front of me that had to swerve off the road to avoid hitting me). When I jumped out, my phone which was in my lap, crashed onto the ground and was pulverized by the oncoming traffic. I just spent $250 replacing it!
I'm hoping right now as I hear the power turn back on in my house (thank you LORD!) That this isn't the eye of the storm? I'll let you know though in a few days.
"Consider it all joy my brothers when you face trials of many kinds, because the testing of your faith develops perseverence and perseverence must run its coarse that you will be complete and lacking nothing."
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